Happy Me

This heavy heart, you would't understand.
The unexplainable pain I felt when I see your smiling face.
Your smile was so precious to me
So precious I would trade it with anything
How I used to save my money to buy your favorite characters dolls
How I used to stay up all night to listen to your worries, and stay up even later after you sleep to pray about it
All those things I do to see your smile
Never knew that what I have to do is trade it with mine
Never knew what is takes to make you happy is to let you go

You know your smile makes me happy
Even though I'm without one

Seeing you happily walk towards a beautiful future,
I know it's my part to wish you well
Accepting that I am your past

And to walk towards my own future
where there is no struggling you and i
Just a happy you
And I believe, soon, a happy me :)

Better Days

Life gives us millions reason to smile..
Nice friends..
Great delicious foods..
Funny stories..
Sweet gestures..
How great it is to enjoy every details of happiness in our life.
But sometimes we tend to be absorbed by the small things that doesn't go the way we want..
Most of the times it's not a big deal..
But why can't we just see the complete pictures.. of how wonderful the world is :)

Love each other .. appreciate ..

And see how your world turn so much brighter :)

Life Beneath the Rain

It's been a while i haven't pour my heart into words..
My world has its ups and downs..
It was never flat for the last couple of years and i'm grateful for that..
For all the fluttery feelings that makes me feel like the earth is a such a beautiful place and the tears of burdens that made me realize that it's not.. I'm grateful for all the things God allow me to experience. Even though i do hope He is being a little bit more gentle with it :)
Anyway all the things i've gone through shows how big His trust in me..
Despite of everything, recently it's always raining..
And i love it.
I love rain and how the sky seems like smiling peacefully.
And I love how everyone seems to be a lot calmer under it.

Only Hope

Do you ever hold on for something so tight, you asked yourself why..
And even scold yourself because you thought it's a stupidity..
And no one knows it better than you.
I do..
I, too, asked myself why i often stay on a hurting situation..
Why spend the sleepless nights,
Why can't i let go..
(Sleep is precious, right?)
But i think i found the answer why..
Well..
Even though it will forever be a maybe..
Maybe because you bring me to the doors that I've been searching for, door that will bring me out of this labyrinth of loneliness
Being with you, I see a glimpse light
So maybe that's the reason why it's hard to let you go
Because as much as i'm tired and mad..
How is it possible to let it go?
You're the key to that door..
You're my only hope.

Thoughts #1

It's cold~ but i only want a warmth from You. Because any other warmth will leave and make it even colder.

Mobile Blogger

So i just downloaded the blogger apps on my phone. Which is pretty cool.. and make me wanna continue writing on this blog. Some might be short, others might be long. I'll try to write more bcs truthfully I always like to share my thoughts.. i just never have the time or chance to pour it out :) so, this is my first mobile post... look out for the next!

Dear World,

If happiness is what we're all humans aiming for...

Maybe we should stop fighting

or else we can try to stop arguing

by being less demanding

and start enjoying

every little moments that are passing by

dragging away unreachable happiness that we're looking for..