Dear You..

Dear you,

We haven't met yet. What's on your mind, how are you feeling, what are you dreaming of.. i don't have a clue. But let me tell you something.. someday, in a particular place at a particular time, we will meet. Don't ask me how we fall in love. Eventually I will learn to accept your imperfections and you will learn to accept mine. And we will decide to face this world together, build our warm house together. I know this is not a fairytale, we will need to work hard for our relationship. I will learn to understand every bits of your unusual habit and oh-i-hope-you-don't-mind-my-stubbornnes =) i like my breakfast on bed, two piece of bread with a glass of milk, if you're a lazy ass i will take it myself from the kitchen and bring it to our bed. Calm down, i wouldn't make it a mess since I'll be the one to clean the bed afterwards.

There's so much more I want to share with you. But i gotta go now, someday I'll continue this letter.

Love,

Someone, you haven't met.

Inspirative

My night has come. Where's my moon?

Something is wrong..

Something is really wrong...

I just realized this fact a couple of days ago.. At that time, I really want to go hug and tell someone about this confusing feeling but I don’t know where to turn to.. I don’t know how should I start the conversation, how to express the mess I’m feeling inside.

I couldn’t find the right word, the right description of this feeling. As far as I know, the sky doesn’t look as blue as usual, the sun doesn’t shine as bright, the funniest movie incapable of making me hear that sound I’m longing for.. my own laugh, I don’t sleep well at night, and cold water in the morning doesn’t cools down the heat I feel in my heart.

Then I took a look in the mirror, stretched some particular cheek muscles and there! I saw a smile.. It hit me so hard. The me in the mirror actually look happy. Even with those unrecognizable feeling I feel inside, I can still smile. That smile make everything seems okay. That curve I formed in my face is better than any mascara, lipstick, or eye-liner. It’s so natural, yet it has the same core function. It’s the best make up ever existed.

Yeah. My smile is my make up.

What an incredible make up..

too bad it doesn’t heal anything.

My night has come. My sun has gone. It’s about time looking for a moon, or a flashlight at least.

Fenomena yang sering terlupa, tentang bulan..

Bulan yang baik hati..

Kamu adalah ciptaan yang paling setia dan rendah hati. Terima kasih karena dengan adanya satu hal baik seperti kamu di tengah dunia ini, manusia tidak perlu merasakan derita gelapnya malam. Kamu yang sebaik hati itu, pasti merasakan kesenangan tak terkira karena selalu dibutuhkan setiap malam, bisa membantu seluruh makhluk hidup ketika mereka melewati masa-masa yang paling gelap dalam hidup mereka, yaitu ketika mereka ditinggalkan oleh matahari. Matahari yang selalu diagung-agungkan sebagai si sumber kehidupan, sehingga ia begitu tinggi hati dan pergi meninggalkan kita setiap hari. Tidak pernah ada seharipun dimana ia tidak pergi. Ia selalu pergi. Kami selalu ditinggalkannya. Tapi bagi kami ia tetap penting. Justru karena kami tau suatu saat ia akan pergi, kami begitu menghargai cahayanya. Tapi kamu tak pernah pergi, selalu menjaga kami, berjaga-jaga agar begitu matahari pergi kami tidak sedetikpun mengalami kegelapan total.

Kamu tidak sekuat matahari. Matahari dapat memproduksi sendiri cahayanya, without any effort. Sedangkan cahayamu adalah hasil dari kasih sayang. Kamu yang tidak memiliki kemampuan untuk memproduksi cahaya, Kami tidak dapat membayangkan seberapa keras usahamu, sehingga kamu yang tidak dianugrahi kemampuan membuat cahaya, dapat bercahaya seindah itu. Untuk kami yang jarang bersyukur ini. Kami yang melupakan kehadiranmu saat datangnya matahari.

Jangan pernah tanyakan mengapa kami begitu mencintai matahari. Padahal memandangnya tidak pernah seindah memandangmu. Mata kami mungkin sakit bahkan sampai buta apabila terlalu lama menatapnya. Sedangkan menatapmu merupakan suatu keindahan saat kami sulit terlelap.

Bulan..
Aku memahami perasaan itu. Karena apa yang kau alami, sekarang ku alami. Perasaan senang dibutuhkan setiap malam, dan ditelantarkan saat matahari terbit.

Bulan..
Apakah terlalu rakus bagi kita untuk berharap, ada yang menyadari bahwa pada siang hari pun bulan tidak pernah pergi. Hanya tertutup oleh silaunya cahaya sang matahari.

The wall

I'm sorry for the wall. But I guess I can't help it. I can't knock them down by myself :( I need you. Still need you.

Sleep Pattern..

I'll introduce you.. My buddies! ^^

On this post, I’ll introduce you all to my closest friends. They might appears on my future posts so it’s better for you to know who they are, where they are, and why are they so important to my life

HAPPY FAMILY

KZ
The best mother-in-law.. I’ll be the luckiest daughter-in-law if someday I really have a mother-in-law like her :) She’s the 1st person I met on my 1st day at RICS and currently studying both psychology and communication in USA. This person has a huge influence in my life. Maybe one of the reason why I decide to learn psychology, as I want my children to have that kind of tender, brave, and gracefully warm heart.. KZ ini calon psikolog juga lohh, I guess deep down in her heart she admires her mom as much as I do. I learned so much about myself from her mom, which is the best counselor I’ve met. Wuaah, I miss you everyday, dear! And even though you’re so far awayy, deep in my heart you’re always just a few steps away.

DS
Si pengguna. Her role on this family should be my mother, but.. I can’t call her “mother” !! We’re much too close I guess. I don’t make funny faces to my mother like I do when I’m with her. Hahaha.. Well, actually I have difficulties finding ways to express what’s on my mind and telling others about my personal feelings is never an easy thing to do. But this person has the ability to actually enable me to pour out everything that scares, annoys, delighted me, everything without any fear, doubt, or worry. Time flies whenever I’m with her, selalu adaa aja yang bisa dilakuin, diceritain, atau diketawain. Pokoknya belom pernah ya gw ga ketawa kalo ketemu DS! She’s one of the person I trust the most. My partner-in-crime. But currently she’s studying Geography in Singapore.

YA
His role on this happy family should be my husband. Hahahaa.. lao gong?? (note:chinese pin yin for husband) Ehmm.. But to make it clear, no, we’re not married. He’s a gooodd friend of mine, sejak dari highschool until now and I hope will continue this way even after you meet your real lao po!! He’s pretty much the male version of me. Suka maen game, baca komik, etc. Only a little bit lazier and waaayy smarter. He has a huge amount of potentials, and I know someday when he finally decide to open up his mind and enhance those potentials, he’s going to be great! Indonesia’s going to be proud of you!! Currently he’s studying Aerospace engineering in Netherlands.

TT
From what people say, she’s my twin sister. And I have to agree with them. We have a real good tacit undestanding that it confuse me sometimes, like how I can’t hide anything from her and vice versa. We do have a lot in common, and even more dissimilarities. Either way, meeting her is one of the best things happened to me during my university years. TT is my classmate and we live at the same condominium (different floor) these past 3 years. We get to know each other so deep and profoundly that sometimes both her and my dark side generate some frictions. I mean of course the first year is always the best peaceful full-of-laugh kind of year but sooner or later this stage will come and I’m glad we have overcome it :) She may not be a perfect nor flawfless friend, but I guess her imperfections fits my imperfections perfectly.

And i still has a lot more incredible friends to explain but maybe not now, i am too sleepy.

Words can’t describe how I love my friends.

I still have a bunch of awesome people in my mind to mention but due to the deficiency of time, I can’t introduce them to you now. But I’ll introduce them later when I have a free time or when I’m going to mention them in one of my posts! Okaay? Ciao!

I'll do anything to see you this happy

Yeah,, anything..

We can't get it back..

In life, there are 4 things you can’t get back :

The stone
after the throw…

The word
after it’s said…

The action
after it’s done…

And, the time
after it has passed…

So be careful of what you throw, of what you speak, of what you do, and of what you let pass by…

I'll need my rainbow after the rain..

12.58am

in front of me is a laptop yang kadar panasnya setara dengan setrikaan akibat 6 jam belom istirahat, and inside of me is a brain yang kadar panasnya telah melampaui segala bentuk setrikaan akibat lebih dari seminggu belom istirahat.

(I'm not exaggerating!)

Minggu-minggu terakhir ini boleh dibilang minggu yang cukup menguras fisik dan mental. So much things to do yang bikin physically exhausted, but I can sleep. Too bad ga semua kelelahan bisa diobati dengan cara tidur :)

I'm tired

Tired of making item analysis until late at night

Tired of lifting those jackets around

Tired of selling those snacks

Tired of eating those rice when it didn't sold out

Tired of raising funds

Yeah, I really am tired.

But it's nothing compared to the tiredness of caring

not wanting to burden you

not wanting you to know how tired I am

So please tell me that there's a rainbow after the rain

Backpacking to europe?

Sebentar lagi liburr!! ^.^ tinggal menghitung hari..

3 bulan waktu kosong itu sekarang rasanya panjaaanngg banget, dan gw lagi jungkir balik mikirin mesti ngapain yah buat ngisi liburan itu..

Option 1: Jalan-jalan

Tapi sama siapaa? Yang libur kan gw doang sementara bokap nyokap pasti masih sibuk.. Sekarang berhubung gw uda punya 2 keponakan yang lucu, kay & mich, berarti kalo liburan sekeluarga perginya ber-10. Rame yaahh?! Hahahaa.. ngatur jadwalnya itu loh yg susah..

Naahh.. kebetulan dea, si teman yang paling ngerti aja deh disini ada temennya yang lagi bingung mo ngapain pas libur, ngajakin backpacking ke europe. Uwaahh. Option ini paling menyenangkan sih, tapi rada kejauhan ngga yah ke eropa? Sendiri pula..

Fun-meter: 9

Option 2: Kursus

Kalo mau diitung-itung manfaatnya sih memang option itu paling oke.. Setidaknya 3 bulan ga terbuang sia-sia, lumayan juga siapa tau setelah liburan gw uda jago masak, jago nyetir, ato uda bisa ngobrol lancar sama Miroslav Klose, Ballack, dan para jerman lainnya *optimis berlebih*

Fun-meter: 7

Option 3: Bantu nyokap

Sekali-sekali berbakti pada orang tua, sekalian curi ilmu di proyek. Siapa tau di masa depan kalo klien lagi sepi bisa kerja sampingan jadi interior designer. Atau paling ngga bisa design rumah sendiri, hemat fee designer. Hahahaa.. Yang penting bantu nyokap! Tambahan ilmu saya anggap bonus..

Fun-meter: 6

Option 4: Tidur, makan, bertahan hidup sampai liburan berakhir

Yaah.. kalo emang ga bisa jalan-jalan, ga sempet kursus, dan males bantu nyokap berarti liburan ini gw akan berakhir jadi babi gendut di rumah. Tiap hari cuma tidur, makan, mandi, internetan, nonton dvd, tidur siang, makan, tidur sore, dan seterusnya.. Well, untuk sebagian orang mungkin aktivitas di atas = surga.. tapi rasanya gw ga mau menghabiskan seperempat tahun jadi babi, no offense untuk kaum babi, you're all cute. and pink. But i'm a proud human :)

even though we tend to do stupidity that even pig don't do, but i'm still a proud human.

Fun-meter: -10 !!

an afternoon tea..

As I soar my gaze to the depth of your eyes

I feel like flying up

in the infinite blue,

Climbing the rainbow,

crossing the clouds

Feeling soft blew of the wind within my face,

The flicker of gentle light tickling my very soul

Then I discover what I found:

A precious star, twinkling brightly, softly,

As if a hand reached out to me,

taking me out of this world that full of grace and lies

There in your precious star

I found an answer,

an endless truth

I feel the warmth nestling in,

This wish from the sky is coming to me,

And to the beauty of what’s in you

-Sitta Karina (on the book “Pesan Dari Bintang”)

Oiyaa kita belom kenalaann?! and the 1st random fact..

So the name is grace =) Seperti yang uda dibilang sejak post pertama, gw ga punya pengalaman nulis. This blog boleh dibilang cuma modal nekad dan keinginan untuk mengisi waktu dengan hal-hal berguna. I've been wasting too much time watching those DVDs!! hahahahaa.. Well, mulai sekarang dibatesin deh 3 episodes/day (Err, I don't say I'm going to stop watching DVDs!)

By now you might be wondering, what's so wrong in wasting our time? We're youunngg!! True. But no, I don't want to be seonggok daging bernafas yang cuma bikin penuh dunia ini.. I want to do something, I want to be something.. in a positive way :]

Ga kebayang aja sih apa jadinya dunia kalo semua orang cuma mau makan, tidur, cari uang yang ujung-ujungnya untuk makan lebih enak dan tidur di kasur yang lebih empuk. Emang sih there's nothing wrong in sleeping and eating. In fact, I LOVE EATING but there's so much more we can do. It just annoys me soo much how some people see life as a playground and only think about having fun. Buat orang-orang yang masih percaya manusia itu evolusi dari monyet, at least prove that the monkey uda berevolusi.. stop acting like one. Hehehe. Jk!

That would be the 1st random fact about me =)

Lesser living for a fuller life

Own less. Create more.

Buy less. Share more.

Work less. Play more.

Less media gazing. More sky gazing.

Less cellphone time. More reading time.

Less noise. More silence.

Less impulsive shopping. More frugal consuming.

Less wanting. More gratitude.

Less needing. More contentment.

Explain less. Act more.

Stress less. Laugh more.

Think less. Feel more.

Less promises. More surprises.

Less performances. More inquiries.

Less concepts. More experiments.

Answer less. Question more.

Comply less. Question more.

Believe less. Question more.

Less known. More unknown.

Less handed-down beliefs. More self-discoveries.

Less fixation. More freedom.

Talk less. Listen more.

Analyze less. Experience more.

Judge less. Observe more.

Less concrete. More soil.

Less tabloids. More trees.

Less smoking sections. More fresh air.

Criticize less. Appreciate more.

Object less. Understand more.

Exclude less. Include more.

Less knowledgeable. More innocence.

Less target. More acceptance.

Less doing something. More doing nothing.

Attach less. Release more.

Ignore less. Meditate more.

Fear less. Breathe more.

Less addiction. More awareness.

Less norms. More conscience.

Less mindless. More mindfulness.

Credit: Dewi "Dee" Lestari

Finally, a new source of happiness

So i finally decide to write a blog! Yeay ^.^

Munculnya blog ini merupakan bukti nyata betapa tugas-tugas kuliah uda ga seberat dulu..

Yeaaahh!!

Ok, so.. I'm a newbie here, without any blogging experience. Sejauh ini saya cuma menulis saat mengerjakan PR, memberi nama pada buku pelajaran, menyalin catatan teman, dan mengisi daftar hadir pesta pernikahan. Harap maklum bila masih banyak kekurangan. Thankss!

After reading the previous paragraph I can imagine you wondering what the heck am I doing here. Well, there's a beginning to everything! Ide awalnya simpel sih. I want to be your source of happiness! Is that point accepted? Alriteeee.. Let's get it started!